Can't find the mood to work any more

Well, some time in July I went on vaction, and a week later it was over.

During that week I totally relaxed while being able to get some pastdue chores accomplished. I went out for breakfast, sat outside and had lunch and managed to go out for dinner once or twice. This week was a true vacation from a regular work week.

I know we all go thru this, but, since I went on vaction that week, I can't find the mood to work any more and I don't know why.

If you ask every one at work, I WAS the company person, and, would live and die for my company. I didn't always understand why the company would do things, but it was ok because me being the "company person" new it had a purpose to serve when there was change in company policy.

Overtime was always available. I believe there was only a week or two in the 12 1/2 years that I have been employed here where there was no overtime. Now, I hate the thoughts of working any overtime, although I only cut my overtime in half. What's wrong with me?

Maybe I feel this way because I only have about 4 1/2 years to go. I did make a promise to myself I would not work at a job that made me miserable, but lately I feel that way. I don't want that 4 1/2 years seem like seven or eight and it would be foolish for me to start another job at this time.

I have always been a totally organized and in order person at work. (Home definitetly is a different story). I think the main reason for having every thing in order is the fear of forgetting to do things. But I am becoming entirely bored with my job. I am also not fond of a lot of workers there but God knows they must feel the same about me. An all woman office is dangerous. Not physically dangerous but mentally and emotionally, women are terrible to each other. I haven't been terrible yet (at least I don't think I have been), but I WANT TO BE. WHY you ask? That's what I ask also.

I am not PMSing, I am thru my changes. But I bite my tongue every day in order to keep from telling some one or some bodies they are stupid. Now, am I so perfect and right and they aren't? I am looking for that answer also, lol.

The thought of work is over for the evening, but, it's going to start all over in the morning, YIKES!